Imagine a soul as a ship on the open waters. At slow speeds, it dips and slops deep into each undulating wave, whereas a speed boat moving at high velocity will merely skip and leap from crest-to-crest. When I go several days without taking Abilify, my soul feels too deeply, and I fall into each dip, barely able to handle the emotions, both good and bad. When I go on Abilify for even just a day or two, my soul is the speed boat-- I don't wallow in fear, but I can't connect with positive emotions very well either, and I experience great spiritual dryness.
Knowing which mornings to pop one of those pills, and which mornings during which to abstain, is key.
On a totally different note, I've been enjoying the PlayStation 5 a lot more as the system ages. In terms of creativity I still think this is the weakest the industry has ever been-- but at least the experiences, however derviative, have been fairly robust. Just in looking at my shelf I see "Astro Bot", "Gran Turismo 7", "Monster Hunter Wilds", "Ratchet & Clank: Rift Apart", and "Street Fighter 6"-- all solid games which give the system at least some identity. They are all sturdily-made games with good graphics and lots of content.
It's nice that the PlayStation 5 has literally all of the mainstream stuff on it too. Also on my shelf I see "EA Sports FC 24", and a pair of "Maddens". Not to mention, the unit plays almost every single PlayStation 4 game, and also has almost every downloadable or indie game one could possibly want to play. I've been using the built-in guide videos for "Astro Bot", it's really neat having that integrated right into the dashboard without needing my laptop and YouTube. Plus, the controller is a total gem.
All-in-all it's a solid system on which I've made some decent gaming memories over the past few years.
On a church note, great change is coming to the organization of the diocese of which I am a part, and I learned some of the first details last night. I've been in almost constant prayer and reflection since then. Tonight, it's a community soup & sandwiches reconciliation event, and I've been spending a lot of time examining my conscious in preparation to have a thorough confession, as well as coaching my kids through that kind of preparation.
"...in my thoughts and in my words; in what I have done, and in what I have failed to do..."
In the spirit of making myself available to others in service, I had a really nice phone call with an elderly friend of mine today. I am going to his house next Tuesday to help him install a new laser printer he bought, plus to take him out to lunch at our favorite Chinese buffet. It's always a pleasure to hang out with him, he's a good friend, and a good person.