The Exigent Duality
HDMI GBA Kit - 18:33 CDT, 8/13/22 (Sniper)
I backed this on Kickstarter many moons ago, and I finally got around to putting it together. Viola!



The Super NES controller port is functional, and the device also successfully syncs with the Switch Pro Controller, which is how I've primarily been testing it. I've tried three games so far: Doom has artifacts, but Doom II works, while Super Mario Bros. 3 is also perfect.

I'm not sure what I'll ever use this device for, especially since my CRT TV overscans contemporary stuff like this, and the RetroArch output from my PC is so perfect and configurable: but it's still nice to have a modern way to play actual GBA carts on a CRT or HDTV, even if I don't have a concrete use case for that right now.
Apple Bite - 07:50 CDT, 8/11/22 (Sniper)
After weeks of deliberation, I ordered my first-ever Apple product today: a 2022 MacBook Air in the "midnight" color, with the nicer chip, and 24 gig of RAM. It should arrive in the first or second week of September. After I sat down and made a concrete list of use cases, the decision to place the order became more clear.

First, as a development machine it gives me full-fledged Visual Studio, Visual Studio Code, IntelliJ IDEA with the Android plugin, Godot Engine, and xCode all in one spot. Heretofore, I've had to very annoyingly jump between my GNU/Linux machine and my Windows 10 work laptop, exchanging files via GitHub pushes and Google Drive. That gets old, quick. And even with that hassle, I still didn't have access to the Apple ecosystem! Now I have absolutely everything, all in one spot. There is a reason why I see ninety percent MacBooks at developer conferences.

Second, I've been wanting a superlight-class laptop with long battery life, to have with me on the sofa or bed while playing games. I look things up frequently, and take lots of notes. Walking to my GNU/Linux box every time was really starting to grate on my nerves. This new machine will satisfy that long-standing itch. Also from a gaming standpoint, this will make a wonderful portable RetroArch setup with its bright, rich-colored screen. And I will also subscribe to Apple Arcade: I went through lots of games yesterday, and there are a good dozen or so which look really enticing, with their ads and gacha balancing removed.

Third, the bundled software looks so phenomenal that it will lead me to self-improvement and fun side-projects. I've been wanting to learn piano for probably twenty five years, but could never find the right software: this machine will have access to Apple's "GarageBand", which will support the MIDI keyboard I bought some years ago. Additionally, their "Movie Maker" software will be an enormous upgrade from the flaky and janky "OpenShot" I have been using.

Fourth, I adore Augmented Reality as a concept, and it's a worst-kept-secret that Apple is going to release prescription AR glasses. I wouldn't wear them full-time for privacy reasons, but for career and personal interest purposes, I want to be first in the door on the development side when those hit. I also want to teach myself native iPhone development. Now both of those doors are open to me. I can even start with their AR framework on the iPhone 14 Pro I will buy once they are available. I will keep my 2017 Samsung Galaxy S8+ as a Wifi computer to continue my development exposure to Android.
Meeting a Role Model - 04:48 CDT, 8/09/22 (Sniper)
There is a Minnesotan gal named Emily Roberts, who started a YouTube channel some years ago called "Snake Discovery". Like former "Justice and Drew" producer and fellow successful entrepreneurial young woman, Sam Sansevere, Roberts grew her channel into a 2.75 million subscriber phenomenon. It's been so successful in fact that Roberts has opened her own zoo, where she hosts birthday parties and the like.

My daughter has been on the journey with the YouTube channel as it has grown, and Emily Roberts has been a bit of a role model for her. Fast forward to a few days ago when my daughter went to a friend's birthday party and got to meet Emily in person! Anyone who knows my daughter understands that this was a pretty big deal for her. My daughter even knows all of Roberts's snakes-- "The one in the picture is 'Doug'", she explained to me:




My daughter already cares for twelve chickens, two guinea pigs, and five cats. She is going to do some pretty heavy work on her bedroom over the coming months, re-painting and re-arranging so that a pair of garter snakes, with the entire setup that they require, can join the "piggers" and our elderly cat in her room. I'll have pictures in the future once she's done with the project.

I was talking about God calling people to vocations with my kids the other day, and my daughter sees this and a hundred other little events as clear signs of God opening doors for her, showing her the path on which to walk.
God is Great - 12:51 CDT, 8/02/22 (Sniper)
It's interesting how quickly things can fall into place when you put your faith in God. I've been praying to Him ardently every night, saying the rosary, haven't missed a single holy day of obligation in the entire time I've gone back to the faith-- and look at how my life has gone since then; every prayer answered:

  • I was able to successfully relocate my family to the bug out house, full time.

  • I was able to successfully deliver on the enormous addition project, on behalf of the whole family. On top of it, after some early hiccups, the family is getting along great.

  • The heart scare He brought on me led me onto a hardcore mission to improve my health-- and it wasn't even a heart attack! I'm fitter than a fiddle.

  • I've been worried about my prostate: not cancer. Not even remotely. Just a case of benign prostatic hyperplasia.

  • The heart scare brought me to start real therapy, breaking down why I'm thinking the way I am, dating back to a tragedy I went through in my late teenage years.

  • I was put on a drug called Abilify. Projects I couldn't get motivated to do for an entire decade? Three days on Abilify, and I'm knocking them out like gangbusters. I've never been so passionate about technology, and that's really saying something!

  • That feeling that I lost twenty IQ points, which I'd blamed on "just getting old"? Three days on Abilify and I have greater mental acuity than I did at twenty five. And at forty I have four times the fitness levels I did back then.

  • I don't even get upset about politics or the Cultural Marxist crusaders anymore: I pray for them instead, for God to have mercy on them, and for them to turn from evil and follow Jesus.

  • My career is going gangbusters: I'm making quite a lot of money, my skills are in hot demand within my employer, my employer is very healthy, I really like my coworkers, and I'm feeling very engaged overall.

The only fly in the ointment is that Abilify has dropped my sleep down to quite literally four or five hours per night! Even more odd is that I don't care: no headaches, tons of energy.

I remember Donald Trump saying that during his whole life he's only slept five hours per night, and that's why he's been so productive. I'll see if I can get it corrected via therapy-- but I wouldn't go back to my old state for a million bucks.
Blazor Lazors - 19:17 CDT, 7/29/22 (Sniper)
This is going to be one of the best times to build a PC ever: these new RTX cards are going to be so outrageously fast, that game budgets will never reach the point where this batch of GPUs would become obsolete! The CPU side is looking almost as crazy. I suspect my new PC will be a Ryzen 7700k with an RTX 4080. My plan is to have it run Windows 11 only, and to have it exclusively hooked up to my TV, like a quasi-games console. It'll be my last gaming PC ever, unless some paradigm shift like holograms comes along. Then I'll keep my current GNU/Linux PC setup for development, finances, RetroArch-to-the-CRT-TV, and all the rest.

I also wouldn't mind getting a MacBook and an iPhone at some point, just so that I can have some experience in their ecosystem. Eventually they will release AR glasses, and it'd be fun to tinker with those. I've been awake since 2:30 this morning getting a basically empty, Blazor progressive web app stubbed out. You can see what I've done so far here, including the steps I used to get debugging working in Visual Studio Code under Arch Linux. Once I finish the work, I'll wrap it up and publish it on the Google Play store. Then next year if I dip into the iOS ecosystem, I can cross-publish it over there too.
The F4U Corsair - 14:51 CDT, 7/27/22 (Sniper)
The whole clan, including me and the kids, went to an air show at Flying Cloud Airport this past weekend. There was tons of cool stuff there, but my favorite-- and my primary reason for wanting to go-- was to see my favorite airplane of all time, the Chance-Vought F4U Corsair. I recorded some short clips of it taxiing, taking off, and flying over-- check them out here.

Ignore the weird propeller speed-- that was due to the default shutter speed on my phone's camera, which I didn't know how to change. I could have also lived without the corny music and the dude on the PA system-- but what can you do. The average American's attention span is about two seconds, so they need all of the added B.S. or their minds stray.

As I explained to my kids, at the beginning of World War II, the US really struggled in the aerial department. The Japanese planes may have been made out of paper mache and cardboard, but boy were they maneuverable compared to the heavy, can't-climb-or-turn early US fighters such as the Grumman F4F Wildcat. The early-war US pilots could only compete through elaborate tactics, like luring Japanese Zero aircraft head-on into their wingmen.

This era was the most exciting in the history of aviation, because the world went from biplanes in 1939 to jet aircraft in 1944. Already by 1942 then, a second generation of US aircraft entered the war. These planes were not only heavily armored, but had fifty caliber machine guns, self-sealing fuel tanks, and they were faster than hell, could turn, and climb like crazy. The first of this wave of aircraft was the Corsair.

It had a 2000 hp engine and a massive thirteen foot propeller! They had lots of issues with the propeller literally scraping the ground. The final solution wound up being a funky wing shape, so they could position the landing gear just so. The Corsair could go over 400 mph, and had a whopping 11-to-1 kill ratio over its Japanese counterparts. During the slow fly-by in my video, I bet the pilot was at thirty percent throttle. The plane's only downside is that at low speeds it tended to stall to the left, unfortunately killing some young pilots-in-training, and earning the nickname "The Ensign Eliminator."

Just like many of my other favorite planes, such as the A-10 Warthog and the SR-71 Blackbird, the F4U Corsair had tons of custom engineering and improvised thinking, lending it tons of personality and character. It was also "best in class" at what it did.
Living Under Ice - 07:11 CDT, 7/15/22 (Sniper)
I couldn't stop laughing when I first read that Gavin Nuisance was going to run for President. Gavin Nuisance! You need to go back to the late Roman Empire to find a leader worse than him! He's been an almost incomprehensible disaster for California! He's so bad, that even Commiefornians were inches away from throwing him out of office in a nearly unprecedented recall vote. Victor Davis Hanson has a great summary of the Nuisance Debacle right here.

In other political news, beyond undoing part of the Sodom and Gomorrah of modern-day America, the "Roe v. Wade" overturning has created other knock-on good news: it has accelerated the on-going, voluntary segregation between the Left and the Right. I used to be a huge advocate of secession-- but these days, I think the country might be better with a "soft" version, where enough pressure is alleviated by people just moving apart from one another.

I've been listening to Hibria's "Defying the Rules" a lot lately, what a phenomenal album! It shows up at number thirteen on my favorite albums list. It's amazing how they created their own fictitious universe from scratch, with these crazy dudes riding around on Harley Davidson-style motorcycles in battle. Like any great concept album, the story has a superb arc, and the compositions are top drawer, truly first order, and utterly authentic.

I've also been hooked on GamesMaster, positively marathoning it. It's so profound that it reminds me of when I discovered "The Computer Chronicles" many years ago. I had heard it mentioned many times before, but it wasn't until "Retro Man Cave Neil" did his Dominik Diamond interview recently that I decided to actually go check out the show. I figured I'd watch just ten minutes of the first episode, and wound up mid-way through series two so far. Incredible!

Finally, I think someone abducted Claudio Lotito and replaced him with a cyborg. While I've always been a huge admirer of his fiscal prudence, I've long thought he needed to do a better job of investing forward: spend money now, even if it involves a modicum of debt, to reap returns later. Now he's off spending upwards of forty million Euro, buying a bunch of sub-twenty four year olds. With Sarri running this refreshed ship, I wouldn't be surprised of Lazio challenged for a Scudetto this season, and that's no joke.
Unfolding Primarily As Expected - 15:59 CDT, 7/10/22 (Sniper)
The joke: "What's the difference between a 'conspiracy theory' and fact? About three months." Here is example number one thousand. Absolutely everyone with a brain knew Beijing Biden was totally senile ages ago. Check out what I wrote here, in May of 2020:

"...be aware that if you vote for Joe Biden, you're actually putting his unelected cabinet in charge of the entire country: I'm not trying to be mean-spirited, but he quite literally can't remember what time zone he's in or what his wife looks like half the time-- he's almost completely senile. Him as President would be like that 'Star Trek' episode with the drugged puppet leader."


But now, the Left are throwing the hair sniffer under the bus, so it's suddenly "ok" to talk about what's been obvious for years.

I also wrote this in October of 2020, seems pretty prescient, yes?

"...if Trump wins, expect immediate problems, such as marauding domestic terrorists burning down cities-- whereas if Biden wins, anticipate a medium term transformation of the entire nation into Commiefornia, with legal sex and race discrimination, rolling blackouts, and third world-esque cityscapes.

Presently, I'm expecting a Biden win-- but I have a complete contingency plan to keep my family safe, ready for motion at a moment's notice in the event of a Trump victory, or some other world-disrupting event."


Naturally, my "contingency plan" was put into place immediately after The Selection, which of course all of you now know was the permanent relocation of my family to our country house. That plan was supposed to be employed if Trump won-- but I didn't anticipate just how rapidly the Democrats would destroy the country! So I put the plan in motion anyway.

Finally, take a look at this article, then cross-reference it with what I wrote here, bold emphasis is mine:

"Whether instinctively or by design, the Democrats seem to understand where we are in this cycle. Their choice of values is totally nonsensical, which is why they aren't catching on. But at least they are presenting a holistic world view, attempting to fulfill the need the young have for making some kind of sacrifice, or being 'heroes' in some way. They are also non-stop talking about forgiving student loan debt, and about building infrastructure (again, around a nonsensical "climate change" value however).

If the overall cycle theory is correct, it poses a problem for Conservatives: according to the authors, now is not the time for individualistic-centered Libertarianism. Rather, Conservatives should be proposing a competing civic model, with its own set of values for which young people can throw themselves on the sacrificial altar."


The article's author "gets it".
Dead End Direction - 06:51 CDT, 7/06/22 (Sniper)
To say the people running this country are sick in the head is an understatement. How in the world does the average person in the United States benefit from this? The US has two hundred trillion dollars in unfunded liabilities, and its currency is going into the trash: now there'll be an obligation to protect yet two more countries! Not to mention, Putin is being totally up-front like he always is: "Go ahead and do this, but I will need to start militarizing that border as well, increasing tensions."

And Vladimir Putin is the bad guy?

In car-related news, Eric Peters once again brings up this excellent point: the article is well worth the read. How in the world are car brands going to differentiate themselves, if all they sell are the auto-equivalent of cordless drills? They are already having this problem: to pick one of my traditionally favorite car models, the WRX from 2015-on doesn't even look like a Subaru-- and now the model is essentially dead (or literally in the case of the STI). The newest one doesn't even have the glove-friendly gear-shaped knobs: instead, it has a giant touch screen!

I suspect that in ten years, maybe as many as half of the car brands currently on the market are going to be gone.
Virtus Entella in Pro Evo 2021 - 09:26 CDT, 7/05/22 (Sniper)
As an overdue follow-up to this post, I did indeed go on to buy an Xbox One disc version of "eFootball Pro Evo 2021 Season Update", or whatever in blazes it's called, for ten bucks on eBay. I even reviewed it.

As someone who has been playing the series since 2004, I can attest that although it hasn't changed much over the past several years, this current rendition's gameplay is probably the best sports engine ever created. It doesn't hurt that the graphics, outdated as they may be from a tech standpoint, look marvelous at a native 4K, with HDR, running on the Series X, at sixty frames per second.

As is my usual pattern, I picked a terrible, low-budget Serie B team-- Virtus Entella, in this case-- then painstakingly rebuilt them in Master League over multiple "mercatos" so that they not only have gone from players in the low sixties to the mid-upper seventies, and not only gone from an aging declining squad to an average age of twenty one years old, but to the point where they have thirty million Euro in the transfer coffers, and six million to spare in the wage budget.



Currently, I'm leading Serie A having won promotion, and am also in the knock-out stages of the Europa League, having won the Coppa Italia. I'm playing on "Regular" difficulty, as I always do. I have several players with a market value of over twenty million Euro at this point.

Maximiliano Romero is my star player; I'm tied for the league lead in scoring with him, and he also has ten assists. Alexis Claude-Maurice, Mohammed Dauda, Rhys Williams, Kai Fotheringham, Bosko Sutalo, Ethan Ampadu, and Nehuén Pérez are all real-world players various people might recognize. I'm not sure who "Lobato" is, but he is my second most spectacular attacking player. "Suarez" is also great, also not sure who he is in real life.

Additionally, I have re-incarnated versions of Viviano in goal, and Rodrigo Palacio-- a player I've been watching in real life since he was in his early twenties, playing in Argentina-- whom I employ as an attacking midfielder. Here is the entire squad list:

Long Weekend - 07:51 CDT, 7/04/22 (Sniper)
This is my favorite weekend of the whole year, because everyone and their brother comes up to the lake: there are ten cars on every piece of property; dogs everywhere; the sounds of children playing; the pop of pellet guns being fired recreationally in the woods; tents pitched, campers chocked; fire pits blazing, the smell of hot dogs and hamburgers in the air. Yesterday, there was even a vintage World War II airplane doing faux strafing runs on the lake-- swooping way up to great heights, wing-over, then down again, skimming mere feet off the water, big plumes of smoke released to the cheers of the swimmers and fishermen nearby.

When I see data like this, it's no surprise to me. I'd be interested to see urban-to-rural charts. When I bought this property in 2016, the lake was an abandoned place during the week, only to liven up during weekends. Now? It's practically a small suburb, with cars parked on gravel driveways year 'round. Everyone has done what I've done: "Why not just move there permanently?" With the kind of growth the nearby city and surrounding area has been having, I wouldn't be surprised if in twenty years this area looked like an outer-ring Twin Cities suburb, for good and for bad.

In other news, I'm leaning towards building a new PC this fall. For architecture, it will be a toss-up between Intel's "Meteor Lake" and AMD's "Ryzen 7000"; for GPU, it will probably be an "RTX 4080", in spite of the disappointing TDP numbers. Of course, I could scrap this plan: similar to my plans for a "GR Supra", there is no practical purpose to it-- my daughter is getting braces soon, and I need to soon pay for a new deck as well. So we'll see... one interesting thing is, given my age and Lefty regulation the "Supra" would be the "car of forever", while due to economics a new computer would be the "PC of forever".

Finally, my son is really interested in the concept of "liminal spaces". A couple of days ago, he made a custom Minecraft texture back, so he could re-create "the backrooms":

Roles Models and Motivations - 09:12 CDT, 7/02/22 (Sniper)
Psychology is a wonderful thing. To start, read this article and ask yourself, "If I found out that a medical treatment not only didn't work and was in fact actively harmful, what would need to be going through my head for me to not only continue to push people to undergo it, but in a violent way, with intense rhetoric and measures to destroy the lives of the reticent?"

My best guess: people are frightened, and lashing out.

It's like buyer's remorse times one thousand, because it involves their health: the shots have turned out to be scarier than anyone could have imagined, causing hundreds of thousands of deaths, and even more instances of paralysis, chronic illness, AIDS, miscarriages, birth deformities, and you-name-it. I once heard that "misery enjoys company": one hysterically pushing others to get the shots is a way of simultaneously living in a delusion that the shots were beneficial for that person, while also putting everyone else in the same boat.

Another psychological intrigue: the Left worships mediocrity. Why?

Gymnasts train their entire lives to reach the Olympics. It's the culmination of everything of which they've ever dreamed. There was a woman-- their star athlete, apparently-- who made an early mistake, couldn't handle the pressure, and literally abandoned her teammates during the competition. This is akin to a cowardly solider going AWOL in combat when he's supposed to be providing cover fire, and letting his squad mates get slaughtered.

Instead of acknowledging the obvious, this woman-- "Simone Biles"-- is being given a medal by Beijing Biden, and being put on the front of Wheaties boxes! It's very similar to how they erected murals and statues honoring "George Floyd", the violent multi-times felon who died of a Fentanyl overdose while resisting arrest after having passed counterfeit money at a store. Or "Megan Rapinoe", the purple-haired Lesbian who quite literally hates America, and doesn't hesitate to say so at every opportunity. Guess what? She gets a medal too! And who can forget the Left drooling over "Michael Avenatti", declaring the always-obvious fraud as Presidential material, and who is now sitting in prison?

These are some bizarre role models, to put it mildly. What's going on?

From the people on top, they are going for a Neo-Liberal "revolution"-- but first they need to weaken the existing societal edifice. Promoting hedonism and violence is a good way of destroying a culture's foundations. It's like Hitler's "strong individuals, strong families, strong society", in reverse. As for the every day Leftist, I have personal experience with this one: many Lefties who I have personally known, sometimes on a pretty intimate level-- close friends, family members, and so on-- have made poor life decisions, and can't deal with the guilt. Idolizing the lowest-of-the-low serves a dual-purpose: it lifts them up by comparison, while also providing an "escape hatch" for future poor decisions.

Changing gears again, my final psychological topic for the day: there is a fellow with whom I've been working on a project outside of work. He's phenomenal to collaborate with, and does top-drawer work-- but oftentimes it seems like we are communicating "past each other". After a full year of cooperation, I finally figured out what's going on: He's a Myers-Briggs "P", not a "J". All along I had misunderstood his personality, which was causing the often off-kilter interactions!

When I am studying some concept, imagine the body of knowledge as a cubed chunk of clay. New to the subject, I deal with the full width at one end first, as I haven't yet identified what's true or not, what's relevant and what isn't. As I progress in my learning, I whittle away the chunks along the sides-- driving in triangular fashion towards a fine point at the end, which is my ultimate conclusion regarding the subject. Imagine the "final state" looking like a triangle, versus the square with which I'd begun.

My inclination is to drive towards conclusions. As I hew chunks away, I don't need to continually re-evaluate them: I already did it. If things go on for too long and I sense I'm not making rapid-enough progress, or that I'm "spinning my wheels", I get antsy. My goal is to strive for finality.

I once had a friend and co-worker who was my first up-close exposure to a pretty serious "P". He could never make up his mind about anything! Infamously, he spent eighteen months trying to pick out an Android phone, and in the end wound up not even getting one. He was that way with everything. He was the complete opposite of me: his inclination was to drive away from conclusions! Every time he would sense that he was hewing away and approaching the fine decision point, he would throw all of his work overboard, and re-evaluate everything from the wide end of the cube again.

A "J" will get anxious if a conclusion is not being reached, and will want to accelerate the hewing process. A "P" will get anxious when a conclusion is being reached, and will want to blow everything wide open again.

I'd assumed the fellow with whom I've been working was a "J", in part due to his profession, and also in part because he's found the supply chain disruptions to be very stressful: "He's schedule-oriented, and when it gets messed up, he becomes upset." Instead, I had it all wrong: he gets stressed because he doesn't like planning much at all, and the supply chain stuff is forcing him to do so! And when he needs a decision from me but is constantly bringing options we'd already discarded back into the conversation right as things are close to being decided, it's simply another example of my former co-worker and the Android phone.

None of this is a criticism, it's simply me now understanding things better, so that I can manage the relationship in a smoother way. Psychology!
Never Sick of Winning - 13:10 CDT, 6/30/22 (Sniper)
A Zero Hedge writer described this as "must watch" material, and I'm inclined to agree. This segment is one in a long line of recent examples of Tucker Carlson being at his very best.

On a mostly related note, I've been observing that Cultural Marxism-- strike that, radical Leftism at large-- seems to be tottering on its last legs. Here is Paul Joseph Watson digging into this topic as it pertains to Hollywood. Let's hope video games come next.

After recent cultural events such as the "transgender" bans regarding sports, the superb and long overdue "Roe vs. Wade" shellacking, and the New York "gun laws" getting shot down (har har), among other things, it makes me think there is hope yet!
JRPG Renaissance - 07:19 CDT, 6/30/22 (Sniper)
Video gaming is a shadow of itself, and has been for years. Most genres are essentially dead: they may have modern entries, but those titles have completely lost the charm and atmosphere of their forebears. Play "Tekken 3" and "Tekken 7" back-to-back, for instance.

But there are a couple of genres which buck the trend, and are healthier than ever. Any genre which, by definition, is trying to mimic reality, is better in the modern era. The FIFA games on the Mega Drive may have their charms, but play "Pro Evolution Soccer 2021" and compare them. Similarly, compare "Test Drive" on the Amiga to "Gran Turismo 7".

Through sheer happenstance, the other genre which is better today than it's ever been, is the JRPG. They still have "real" music, mostly; they still have elaborate story telling; they still get decent budgets, and use modern game tech; and they still aim to create a strong sense of ambience; they all let you play with Japanese voice acting; they still emphasize exploration plus dungeon crawling. And best of all? Zero Cultural Marxism! They are untouched, and untainted.

If you take the window from a few years ago to a year into the future, these are your choices:

  • Dragon Quest XI (Intro).
  • Final Fantasy VII Remake Intergrade (Preview).
  • Yakuza: Like a Dragon (Preview).
  • Xenoblade Chronicles 3 (Preview).
  • Star Ocean: The Divine Force (Preview).
  • Final Fantasy VII Rebirth (Preview).
  • Final Fantasy XVI (Preview).

And this is just a partial list. If there is a nitpick, it's that the genre is leaning too heavily into orchestra music: nothing here even remotely approaches the legendary JRPG soundtracks from the 90s, such as from "Phantasy Star II" or "Final Fantasy VII"-- or even Japanese action RPGs, such as "Ys Book I & II" on PC Engine. But it's still decent music, especially compared to most of the rest of the contemporary industry.
Forty Percent Drop in Forty Years - 10:01 CDT, 6/24/22 (Sniper)
Almost every day I am astonished at how effeminate modern men look. Hardly anyone talks about how plummeting Testosterone levels have caused grave imbalances in world politics and societies, so I am compelled to remind everyone once in awhile.

This doesn't make any of these men "bad people"-- not even remotely! There's nothing intrinsically wrong with having low Testosterone. But Estrogen equals harmonization; Testosterone equals assertiveness. When you have too much of one or the other, the world goes out of whack. Right now, we're swimming in Estrogen, so there is not enough pushback against typically effeminate values, like huge governments obsessed with "safety" and busy-bodiness.

This morning I was on the "xbox.com" home page, and saw a banner image for a Formula 1 game. Take a look at those guys! In the 1980s, they would have been in the bottom five percent of T levels across all men. Today? They are average.

For comparison's sake, take a look at Ayrton Senna when he was alive. Pay close attention to the shape his nose, his brow ridge, and the texture of his skin in particular. And he was hardly a He-Man of his day either, I could find far more extreme examples-- but I wanted to stick within Formula 1.



Incidentally, I'm a good point of contrast. I took thirty seconds moments ago and snapped a picture of myself via the bathroom mirror. This is what the typical "Gen X'er" looks like. Like Senna, I'm hardly Arnold Schwarzenegger. Lots of the contractors I worked with over this past year were significantly more masculine looking than me.

But even in my "geeky nerd, professional programmer" case, the difference in hair texture, skin texture, brow ridge, size plus shape of nose, and in my case jawline as well, is astonishing.



Once again, this isn't to say that I'm somehow "better" than young men today, or any of that nonsense. All I'm pointing is the difference-- and when you roll up the net behaviors of men today versus in decades past, you can see the world increasingly skidding out of control in one direction.
Pushback - 06:48 CDT, 6/21/22 (Sniper)
I wrote here about how Cultural Marxism is not long for this world, and about how it's silly to boycott a company based on the actions of just a few employees. I was right on the first count, but wrong on the second. This article relays how CEOs have finally had enough: "If you want to take politics into work, then here is your severance package, and goodbye." I'm correct: Cultural Marxism is on the way out. Even Netflix is reforming! However, the article also explains that the reason for this sudden pushback is largely due to the bottom line: i.e., boycotts. CEOs saw that happened to Disney trying to groom kids, and said "Holy smokes."

This quote from a whiney "The Athletic" writer is emblematic of why these radical Left-wing employees need to just be let go: "What about Black Lives Matter? Is that a social cause? Who will write about athlete protests? What about trans athletes in sports?" Pure sophistry, and this person knows it: cover those issues as objective news events, equally interviewing people on both ideas, to present a holistic, well-rounded summary, so that reader can make up their own minds.

In other news, it'd be funny if Lazio also acquired Lucas Torreira: they would have two short dudes running around the center of the park! And finally, I didn't follow up on my Steam Deck pre-order back when, because I'm waiting for a more powerful version, where I can get PlayStation 5-level graphics via image reconstruction, just at the lower resolution of the handheld screen. Sounds like such a thing may already be in the works. My thought is that I can replace my entire PC with a device like that, docking it to do my finances and for other productivity purposes, then undocking it when I want to play games.
VR Headset Game Concept - 14:15 CDT, 6/19/22 (Sniper)
I mentioned in this post that I bought a PlayStation VR unit, and I've been exploring various games for it. Last night I started "Skyrim VR", and I have a lot to say about it.

To get the negative out of the way, I don't think lengthy RPGs as a genre work well with virtual reality headsets. Motion sickness isn't even the primary issue: it's just not comfortable to have a box strapped to your face, with rubber around your eyes, a cord draped around your neck, being totally unaware of the real-life room around you, being basically unable to interact with family members in any kind of meaningful way, fumbling to figure out where you'd set your drink, needing to consume that drink via a straw-- which takes further pre-planning-- and so forth.

But now, to the positive: in VR, the cart sequence at the beginning of the game was absolutely mind blowing. For the millions who have played some iteration of "Skyrim" or another, you will recall that your character is sitting on a wooden bench, alongside some also-sitting NPCs, all being driven to your executions. During this ride, the characters are chatting: one is a brave heroic type resigned to his fate; another is a cowardly thief; yet another is a mute-yet-referred-to hero, with a gag in his mouth.

Now picture this familiar opening, but with stereoscopic 3D: you are in the freaking cart, looking around with your actual head, just like you'd do in real life, taking in the interactions of those around you. A father shepherds his child into the house as the cart passes, the curious child begging him to be allowed to watch. I felt embarrassed to look at those curious onlookers, just like I'd be in real life.

VR takes a scene like this from ho-hum and mostly forgettable to unbelievable levels of immersion.

Unfortunately, as soon as the actual gameplay starts, the title essentially falls apart, for the reasons I state above. When you are forced to suddenly dive into the "meat and potatoes" of a deep, complex, largely menu-driven RPG, where you're staring at reams of text, mentally processing character stats and making equipment decisions, the whole VR headset thing becomes a real drag: you'd rather just play on the TV at that point.

This leads me to a game idea: why not distill the essence of what makes the opening cart ride so memorable, and make an entire title out of just that? Perhaps it could take place in a small city, at night, with a super atmospheric chip music soundtrack, and you'd spend your time sitting in bars, listening to banter for hints, or on subways people watching for clues? Then you'd take what you've learned, and use the incoming PSVR2's 3D controllers to go down decrepit rat-filled alleys, lifting trash can lids based on some clue, or shifting paintings to the side in bug-filled motels, looking for a hinted-at hidden safe?

It could be like that old "Sherlock Holmes" game on 3DO, but all in real-time versus pre-recorded FMV.

The only area where the "Skyrim" cart ride falls down is in the circa-2009 character models and textures. But that won't be an issue with a PlayStation 5 driving the proceedings: the world could use cutting-edge graphics technology, but its scope could be kept to a small, water-tight game world primarily for budget purposes, but also for performance reasons.

As "Astro Bot Rescue Mission" and, conversely, "Minecraft" and "Skyrim" have all clearly taught me, bolting VR onto an existing game concept has limited appeal: it's novel for a few minutes, but gets old quick. Where VR headsets really shine is in experiences designed just for them. The kind of game I describe above would be boring on a TV-- but in VR, all of the emotion of being in the game world could make it a life-long, unforgettable experience, if it was done right.
Cardiologist Clears Me - 14:08 CDT, 6/17/22 (Sniper)
I had a follow-up appointment with a cardiologist today related to this-- he was baffled as to why they even sent me to him: "I have a next step for: go home and play some soccer." His rationale: "You're a young guy, who has never experienced any chest pain. Your heart motion was completely normal during the stress test. You're out playing soccer every day. You broke the treadmill during the test. You have normal blood pressure. You do not have a family history of heart issues. When I put all of the pieces together, I struggle to see how your stress test could be called 'abnormal'."
PlayStation VR - 07:46 CDT, 6/14/22 (Sniper)
Bought a cheap, like-new "PlayStation VR" bundle off of eBay. Post-strabismus surgery, my son can actually see stereoscopic 3D now, and 130 USD for a PSVR set, with a couple of games included, seemed like an awesome entry-level way into the world of headsets.

Wanting it connected in a communal area, I pulled the old PlayStation 4 Pro out of my closet, got it all patched up, and hooked the PSVR up to that. It's a super well-made product, from its cool sliding processing box, to the way the heavy-duty cabling works.

The only thing we had time to play on it yesterday was "Minecraft VR"-- and it was well worth the money, just for that one experience. The PSVR resolution isn't fantastic, but it's past the "good enough" bar for sure-- and the stereoscopic effect in a game like "Minecraft" is extraordinarily immersive.

I also have a demo disc along with copies of "Skyrim VR" and "Astro Bot Rescue Mission". I will probably try those out tonight. I do get pretty woozy from free-roaming games with rotatable cameras, so I'll probably settle more on fixed-perspective titles. My son, by contrast, gets no motion sickness at all.

PSVR2 will be very interesting, on two fronts: first, the resolution is going to essentially look crystal clear due to the headset's resolution; second, the game engines themselves will be much more impressive, with the PS5's added horsepower driving them.
Rebuild - 18:00 CDT, 6/12/22 (Sniper)
Had yet another server hard drive fail today, spent the afternoon building the backup web server into an updated condition. Good part is that I only lost one blog post, and no reviews.
Limits - 17:01 CDT, 6/03/22 (Sniper)
I've been talking for quite some time on this blog about how I think we'll very soon hit the "GPU of forever", because the constraint on improvements to game graphics won't be technology any more, but rather budget. Already we can see that the huge "triple-A" publishers are having to consolidate just to stay profitable, with games that now cost two to three hundred million USD to make.

What I hadn't considered is that economic factors may ultimately prove to be the constraint on the hardware side too. Here is Richard Leadbetter explaining how the cost-per-transistor ratio is rapidly becoming static-- meaning that to keep making more powerful platforms, those platforms will need to keep getting more and more expensive from an MSRP perspective.

Given all of this, I think this next set of PC GPUs is it: a 300 watt, 100 teraflops RTX 4090 is the ceiling, because continuing to grow transistor count will be beyond the elasticity curve of consumer demand-- and way beyond sustainable game budgets. For perspective, the "Matrix Awakening" tech demo cost tens of millions of dollars and had a team of over a hundred people-- and it wasn't even a game, and it wasn't even remotely approaching what something like an RTX 4090 could do!

As for the consoles, I think we're one set of proprietary video game systems from the final one. And from a mobile perspective, the DLSS-powered "Switch Pro" will probably be the handheld of forever.

In other news, I got out of Dodge just at the right time: the city I moved from-- Robbinsdale-- saw one of the largest jumps in violent crimes in 2021, across the whole state! I knew that all of the flags, yard signs, the libtard mayor and city council members, and all of the rest of it would have real world consequences-- and I was right. Now I'm in what is essentially an all-white, Christian, anarcho-capitalist ethno-state: it's clean, violence-free, beautiful, and with the warmest people I've ever met.

Finally, I've been practicing my football skills extensively of late, and at age forty I'm at the highest level of technical ability in my entire life. I played the sport at a competitive traveling level from ages six to seventeen-- so the fact that my technical skills are beyond that threshold isn't just an idle statement. I can't even imagine how much more advanced my tactical knowledge is at this stage of having followed the upper-most echelons of the game for so long.

As always, it's poor diet decisions holding me back: I eat like rubbish! Same as it was when I was a kid and teenager. I'm still only 155 lbs, but the composition of the food is awful: it's all sugar and caffeine. Nonetheless, I think at an "old man's amateur beer belly league" level, I could be like a Luis Alberto: I have good vision, passing range (for my poor fitness level), and am an unorthodox thinker who likes flicks and backheels. Too bad there isn't such a league where I live: one disadvantage to a rural area, I suppose.

Finally and back to gaming, I'm seriously considering getting Sony's next "PlayStation VR" headset. The Resident Evil pair of "4 Remake" and "Village", along with "Horizon Call of the Mountain" all look interesting. My son and I would have a lot of fun playing "No Man's Sky" in VR, which is probably pretty surreal.
Not Obliged - 10:42 CDT, 5/30/22 (Sniper)
A friend recently told me a story, where a relative had a huge garage with two bay doors, one of which was totally empty. Weather reports showed a large storm approaching, with the significant possibility of large hail. He asked the family member, "Would you mind if I backed my car into the empty bay for forty five minutes until the storm passes?", to which the relative replied flatly, "No."

This brings to mind an interesting philosophical question. Clearly the relative is in no way obligated to let someone else use his garage: after all, it's his, and he is the sole arbiter of its use. It's his prerogative.

On the flip side though, the concession quite literally costs him nothing! It'd be like someone who can snap their fingers and make a sandwich magically appear from thin air, ala "I Dream of Jeannie", passing a starving person on the sidewalk, and refusing to feed the poor soul. True, the genie does not exist to provide for the starving man-- but the denial feels mean spirited nonetheless.

Then it becomes a question of motive: perhaps the concession is in psychic, non-material terms?
Good Guys - 18:09 CDT, 5/24/22 (Sniper)
A small sampling of the good stuff coming out of the Davos gathering:

  • Tracking every individual to make sure they don't eat meat or buy the wrong products.
  • Pills which will "phone home" as to whether the person took them.
  • A global surveillance system to "prevent pandemics".
  • The "WEF" now has its own rifle-armed police force, with beautiful orange arm patches.

Klaus Schwab says that it's important that these elites act "on behalf of the community." I guess that's why they are also proposing all of these referendums, so people can vote about all of these things about to be done to for them. Right?

It's too bad I'm not a Lefty. All of these selfless, rational, helpful global elites want exactly the same things the Democrats do! That's how I know I'm on the wrong side of history.
Heart Troubleshooting - 16:18 CDT, 5/24/22 (Sniper)
A few weeks ago, I had wifey drive me to the emergency room at 4:00am due to what I thought in the moment must have been a heart attack: couldn't breathe, and extreme chest pressure. A gamut of negative tests plus doctor discussions have led me to adjust my hypothesis that it was a panic attack.

Yesterday, I had a stress test plus echocardiogram. My resting pulse is only around 50 so it took me fourteen minutes, the final portion of which involved essentially sprinting up hill, just to get my heart rate to the desired 170. The people involved were impressed by my relative fitness: "I'll be honest, it's very rare that we get someone running in here."

Feeling optimistic, I was surprised by a phone call this morning indicating that the test revealed abnormalities. I now have a June 17 follow-up with a cardiologist. Thankfully, my healthcare clinic uses an online system where they publish pretty much everything for the patient: it's phenomenal transparency! Sure enough, the full report was there when I looked-- here is the summary:



I've had mildly elevated blood pressure for almost a decade due to the practically absurd levels of stress I'm under on a daily basis, to the point where I've been in a constant dream-like state of derealization for that entire period-- but I've been able to mostly control the blood pressure by managing my weight.

Based on what I see online, this left ventricular hypertrophy of mine is probably caused by this protracted period of high blood pressure, and can be reversed with medication. I'm not sure what to make about the ischemia reference in the last bullet: all "ischemia" means is "reduced blood flow". It's not clear to me how that fits into the larger picture: do I have a blockage? Further tests probably warranted.

I've also had some kind of arrhythmia, a sort of palpitation, for the past ten-odd years. My regular doctor at the time plausibly wrote it off with "cut down on the caffeine". But now it's looking like there is indeed some larger, underlying issue.

Either way, in the next few weeks I think I'll find myself shifting from no medications to two: some kind of anti-anxiety solution, plus a blood pressure pill of some sort.
Unnatural Events - 07:44 CDT, 5/21/22 (Sniper)
This is the best description of the Creepy Joe regime I've yet seen, compliments of Victor Davis Hanson. From the article, bold emphasis is mine:

"If an administration deliberately wished to cause havoc on the border, to ensure fuel was nearly unaffordable, to create a crime wave, to spark 1970s hyperinflation, and to rekindle racial tensions, what would it have done differently than what President Joe Biden has done?

When pressed about inflation and fuel price hikes, Biden either blames someone or something else, gets mad at the questioner, or claims former President Donald Trump did it.

His administration apparently believes things are going well and according to plan.

When polls disagree, his team either believes the American people are brainwashed or that they themselves have not supplied sufficient propaganda. So they never pivot or compromise, but rededicate themselves to continued failure."


In other news, Tom Woods had an excellent guest on-- an American expat who has been living in China for many years. He answered a bunch of questions, such as whether China actually has "ghost cities", whether they really do have access to the internet proper, and as the video's title suggests, what's up with the "social credit system"?

Unsurprisingly, the Western propagandized caricature seems to be a mix of truths, half-truths, and lies. Reminds me of my brother's best friend-- he spent his whole childhood there, half of his family is still there, and for the life of him he can't comprehend where most of the things said about China in the West even originate: no one he knows who has lived there their whole lives has never encountered any of these things.

All of that said, it is possible that the guest is living in an "expat bubble", so-to-speak. That said, I'd like to see more of this kind of discussion: get people on from China, Russia, Iran, and so forth, to get their sides of the stories.

In yet other news, turns out a group simulated a "monkey pox" global outbreak back in March 2021. Boy this is becoming a familiar formula. The timing is interesting: the media is pushing this "monkey pox" thing right as this is going on. It would be an interesting way to put a global government in place: engineer plus release a weird virus, and simultaneously get nation states to sign their sovereignty over to a supranational body, run by a Communist incidentally, which has total control "during a pandemic", and which is hereafter the declared permanent state of the world (there will always be disease!).

Finally and as a fun way to distract myself from the world, the new Nissan Z is getting pretty much universal acclaim. My current favorite car YouTube channel, "Savage Geese", actually preferred the way the Z drives more than the car I'm leaning towards, the GR Supra: their take is that the Supra's front end is a little vague, and so the car tends to rotate a little too much as the driver fumbles a bit trying to hit the apex-- whereas the new Z feels that bit more precise, and thus its rotation is more gradual and predictable.

All of that said, this is with the $51k "performance" trim's limited slip differential-- which the $40k model does not have. They emphasize that the diff is absolutely integral to how the new car drives versus the viscous version in my 350z or in the 370z-- which leads me to believe the base model new Z could potentially have radically different dynamics than what is being written by pretty much everyone (as Nissan gave the entire media the higher-end trim).

According to Kristen Lee, who pleasantly writes more like the "old white dude" car journalists I used to enjoy than the cuckfaced, soy boy, establishment lap dog current car "journalists", reinforces my view here that the Z feels more like a heavy grand tourer-- just like my 350z-- while the Supra is more exciting and bonkers. I'll probably never buy another car for myself, given how little I drive: for this last one, I want something exciting and bonkers.

Although-- back to reality now, from the fun distraction-- it's really annoying how the entire automobile punditry talks like how it's inevitably the "end" of the internal combustion engined car: sort of like the sun and the moon rising and falling. I even had a co-worker tell me once, "Electric cars are the future." I asked him why. He replied, "Because they're the future!"

There is no natural reason why the new Z has to be "the end of an era": there could (and should!) be another "new Z" after this one, and then another new one after that. The internal combustion engine is the best way to transport people and goods, and it's not even close. The only reason we're talking about external combustion engine cars at all is because governments have bayonets shoved into the spinal cords of car manufacturers and consumers. They want everyone into these 100% computerized cars (with remote kill switches!) so they can be not only tracked, but punished if they go against the regime.

Because external combustion engined cars are even worse from an environmental standpoint-- even worse "carbon dioxide concern", plus the mass-strip mining of rare Earth minerals-- it will be a bait and switch: as soon as they got everyone into the "electric cars", they would say "Hey guess what, these electric cars are terrible, so now it's mass transit only." Then that same co-worker plus all of the "journalists" will tell me we've always been at war with Eurasia, and that "mass transit is the future!"

This entire current state of affairs is not natural, it is not "inevitable", and it can and probably will be reversed, once the entire country has rolling blackouts and the external combustion engined food trucks have no external combustion output available via which to be charged! A famine would bring a swift end to our current "leaders", and the "electric car" nonsense along with it.
The Catalyst? - 06:39 CDT, 5/20/22 (Sniper)
I've been keeping a keen eye open for which events may catalyze this cycle's mega-crisis, and being made aware of this makes everything else look like noise: handing over national sovereignty to the "W.H.O." could very well be a major turning point in world history-- the foundation upon which a global, hegemonic technocracy will be built.
Hitler Documentary - 15:25 CDT, 5/10/22 (Sniper)
I'm over half-way through this six hour documentary about Adolf Hitler, and so far it's absolutely superb. There are two sides to every story, and I'd only heard one side. Despite its title, more than half of the material actually has nothing to do with Hitler, and is more like a thorough recitation of the war itself-- but not framed through a "History Channel" absolutely unquestioning, blindly trusting, uncritical pro-West perspective. I've learned a lot about the various battles, and the geopolitics involved.

All of the below may be true. None of it may be true. There are a hundred claims-- fifty each from "The Allies" and the documentary makers-- which would need to be fact-checked one at a time. Since we've all heard the Western take a million times, as a counterbalance let me provide a tiny sampling from the other side of the story. I'll let you evaluate which sets of facts seem more plausible.


Sampling of the Documentary

To begin with, and one thing the makers emphasize-- this is nothing new to me incidentally, as I've done extensive independent research into this area myself-- is just how evil Stalin was. He must have been one of the top three or five most evil people to have ever walked the face of the planet. The fact that "The Allies" were siding with him, sending him billions of USD in aid, is not a good look. Winston Churchill repeatedly called genocidal maniac Stalin "Uncle Joe". Don't forget, Churchill also fought in the Boer War. Look that one up sometime. Want to know where the Germans got the layouts for their Concentration Camps?

More on Churchill: declassified documents from Britain show that Hitler repeatedly offered peace terms to that country, and that Churchill turned them down over and over. Why? Because Britain had interests in Indo-China, and the Japanese had struck a deal with the French-- if I recall correctly-- to take over some of that that country's Indo-China territory. So Churchill was dead-set on pulling the US into the war, on that basis-- to get the US embroiled in the Pacific, to indirectly protect British interests there from the Japanese. If he'd accepted a peace deal with Germany, he would have lost his leverage over the US.

Meanwhile, Roosevelt-- not Stalin levels of evil, but still a highly duplicitous and conniving figure-- desperately wanted the US to enter the war as well, but polls overwhelmingly showed that the public did not want to get involved in what they saw as an internal European matter. Thus, Roosevelt repeatedly provoked both Germany and Japan via sanctions, oil embargos, and so forth. I'd always heard that he basically knew Pearl Harbor would be attacked, ahead of time. But it was even crazier than that: in the documentary, they show several newspaper headlines: "Japan may attack this weekend." Common knowledge!

Truth, as it turns out, is stranger than fiction.

Other interesting notes: several of Hitler's highest ranking Generals were Jews, as was one of his closest friends, who was also his chauffeur. He had nothing against Jews, per se, but as a group they had plunged Berlin into total, nauseating hedonism, controlling over fifty percent of the media, most of the banks, and all of the media interests, despite being two percent of the population. The first thing he did when he consolidated power was take all pornography plus Communist literature, and toss it into huge bonfires. Next thing he did was negotiate an exchange program, so that German Jews could voluntarily transfer themselves and their wealth to Palestine.

The next thing he did was make usury illegal: in fact, that's one of the twenty five planks of the Nazi platform.

The result was that Germany went into an unprecedented golden age, not just in terms of material prosperity, but in terms of moral standards as well. About his racial views, he had no issues with non-Germanic people at all: rather, his view was "let the German race reach its peak mental, moral, and physical strength-- and let's hope the other races do the same thing for themselves." If true, it reminds me of how Communists twisted Ayn Rand's words and philosophy, because she was politically inconvenient.

Much of Hitler's army were non-Germanic people. He had significant contingents of Muslims, for example, in the SS. In fact, the documentary makers show photographs of special Qurans he'd sent them, with beautiful metal covers, emblazoned with the Nazi and SS emblems.

Hitler didn't "invade" Austria. Austria was part of Germany, and got ripped away as part of the Treaty of Versailles. Hitler was invited into Austria, and was greeted with huge parades, everyone throwing flowers at him. Symbolically, he had Austrian armies move the other way into German cities, to show a two-way unification. The reason he invaded Poland was because Germans were being slaughtered in East Prussia, and he needed to reconstitute the land bridge-- another set of territory taken away after the first World War.

He was a big believer in pre-emptive strikes: he went into France because "The Allies" were massing for an imminent invasion, right on his border. Later, he attacked the Soviets for the same reason: Stalin was obviously preparing to invade Europe from the East, and Hitler saw it as his duty to keep the Bolsheviks out. Where Hitler rewarded and was adored by his men, the demonstrably blood-thirsty Bolsheviks were so brutal that, under Stalin's orders, if anyone was caught retreating even one step, no matter the circumstances, they would be shot in the head on the spot.

As the Germans progressed into Soviet territory, villagers were blessing them, thrilled to no end to be liberated from the brutal Bolsheviks, who had confiscated their crops, farming equipment, and who consequently caused forty million of them to die of starvation, with many having resorted to cannibalism.

Similarly, after the disasters on the Eastern front, during retreat the Germans took as many refugees with them as possible. The documentary has first-hand written, actor-narrated commentary from some of them, explaining how to the refugees, Hitler and the Germans were like angels from heaven, saving them from the hellish, unbelievably brutal Soviet reign of terror.

One of these refugees explained that the scariest part about the retreat was the massive Typhus outbreak which occurred. She explained that when she and the other refugees arrived at camp-- I believe she said it was Auschwitz, but I may have that wrong-- the Germans shaved all of the refugees' heads, put them in showers, and then ran their clothes through delousing chambers, using Zyklon B as the agent.

After the war, she was totally confused by the stories of "gas chambers" and mass murders: "The shower heads they showed on television were immediately familiar to me: they were showers, identical to the one I was in! And the 'gas chambers' were just where they deloused the clothes. Clothes which were still contaminated after delousing, they would burn away in a series of ovens. Yes, they had us crammed into bunk beds-- it was either that or sleep outside."

This is just one woman's testimony of course-- but it rings more true to me than the "gas chamber" stories, which seem incredibly implausible to me. There is an excellent article here explaining how the delousing rooms worked, in great detail. It's all right in the open. The rooms even had signage, labeling their purpose. The whole story seems like a 1940s-equivalent of "Assad's chlorine bombs".


Tentative Conclusions

And maybe this is the point where we need to circle back to what I said in the opening paragraphs of this blog post: I don't know what the truth is. But based on the digging I have done, and based on what I've seen in my forty years with my own eyes and ears regarding real-time evolving contemporary events, the documentary take rings much more true to me than what I was taught in school as a child.

I was taught that Hitler was a maniacal, batshit crazy mad man-- no evidence presented-- who was indiscriminately throwing people into ovens for fun, and who wanted to take over the entire world for no stated or explained purpose at all. And if it weren't for the noble United States and Great Britain, he would have succeeded. The documentary, by contrast, paints Hitler as being a complex individual, with varied motives easily articulated in his own writings, and plausibly based on his own life's experiences.

It's like reading a "Sesame Street" children's book written for two year olds, versus a reference work written for adults. Maybe the toddler book is a more accurate reflection of reality-- and I reserve the right to change my mind later as I continue to come into new knowledge. But the comparison isn't flattering, as I sit here typing right now.

From what I can see, Hitler was a phenomenal and extraordinarily popular leader, who had the interests of his own people in mind. He was surrounded on one side by shady, double-dealing Western leaders, and by the brutal Stalinists on the other. These forces conspired to goad him into a well-meaning war, which he would ultimately lose. These forces then bombed Germany into oblivion, then bombed the rubble into more rubble, then turned around and wrote the "Sesame Street" history books.

To me, it seems like the same thing is going on with the West and Putin today.

Just like Germany before them, the Soviet Union was stripped of its ethnic territory by the West. Repeatedly provoked and falling under abuse, Putin finds himself in the identical position as Hitler before him: re-constitute land bridges to save his countrymen. Meanwhile, Russia and Putin himself is the target of an arm-waving, absolutely hysterical character assassination propaganda campaign, painting him as a one-dimensional paper-thin mad man, with no plausible human motives or nuance. This campaign consists of a combination of outright lies, lies of omission, and the mixing of facts with fictions.

I even read today that Beijing Biden brought back the Lend-Lease Act-- you can't make this stuff up! It's like the West is using the exact same playbook which they followed in the 1930s. Except this time, the target of their manipulations has the world's largest arsenal of nuclear weapons.

This isn't to say that Hitler and Putin are guiltless: they are both police state dictators. And it's easy to poke holes in some of the Nazi platform planks, such as the expansionism to which they claimed they were entitled (from where do they derive the authority?). But the truth is more complicated than a "My Little Pony" episode. The claims made against them are truly sensational. Meanwhile, the Western leaders are undoubtedly even worse: they are intellectually bankrupt, and seem to relentlessly hide their true motives.
Gaslight Land - 07:35 CDT, 5/02/22 (Sniper)
Excellent article here about impending food shortages. Thanks to the graces of God and the wisdom he imparted to me, I'm pretty hedged against this for three reasons: I moved my family to the boonies, where we can grow enormous "borderline fields" gardens, if it comes to that; I work for a large employer which tends to benefit from rough times; my home is multi-generational, so we can pool our incomes to offset rising prices. I should also be able to contribute back to the community here via food and time donations.

I specifically liked this bit from the article:

"...inflation leads to government price controls, price controls lead to lack of production incentives (profits), lack of profits leads to loss of production, loss of production leads to shortages, and shortages lead to government rationing (control over all large food sources)."


Changing topics, I saw a pair of leaked "Forza Motorsport 8" screenshots in my feeds this morning. Here is one of them. In motorsports, there are hardly any black people at all-- but here in Gaslight Leftoid La-La Land, there are not just black drivers, but-- my favorite archetype-- crazy-haired black ladies too! I wonder if the game will have a "Bubba Wallace DLC Pack" story mode, where the black characters mistake door pulls for nooses?

This gaslighting works. Tell a lie enough, and people will start to believe it.

I recently saw a survey, which revealed Americans vastly over-estimate the size of ethnic minority groups. For the record, America is not "becoming more diverse"-- blacks represent about the same percentage now as they did thirty-plus years ago. The only group which has grown relative to whites are hispanics, and a lot of that simply comes down to the sieve-like Southern border, because rich white Leftists want illegal alien María to clean their house on the cheap, or Diego to come over and replace their roof.

Nothing against hispanics. I get along with them better than I do white people most of the time. But immigration needs to be legal.

Gaslighting is not a nice thing to do to people. It's sick.

On this note, as a society we've been gaslit for so long now, I'd almost forgotten what it was like to not be. When The Twatter staff very recently started burning the evidence before the new Sheriff could arrive, the suddenly-reversed algorithms saw the Right-wing people I follow on BitChute and elsewhere getting hundreds of "Likes" and "Re-Tweets" on all of their posts, in matters of hours or even minutes, after years of no traction.

The whole world is like some dystopian "Star Trek" episode, where "reality" consists of holograms-- then at the end of the episode, they destroy the hologram generators, and here they were on the ship's bridge the whole time. Like the world's worst theme park, I think Gaslight Land has just about run its course, and reality is about to re-assert itself. There will be no more time for nonsense.

It makes me sad to say it, but the white Leftoid atheist urbanites who don't own cars, have no food supply of their own, are squashed into high-density apartment housing, are not part of church communities, and who work on the multi-billion dollar plantation farms which own their development studios and which will throw them under the bus at the first sign of trouble, are in for a really rough ride if the grocery store shelves go bare. The least of their concerns will be putting black women on the front lines of World War II, or on race tracks.
Do They Get It? - 10:48 CDT, 4/30/22 (Sniper)
I wonder if the Democrats have "The Fourth Turning" theory advocates speaking at their seminars, or if the book is required reading material for their card-carrying members?

The Democrats have been attempting to create a uniparty system, with a "largest in human history" state apparatus behind it, featuring arms designed around censoring all lie-exposing discourse that would steer people away from this establishment. During each and every one of these steps, they steep the justifications in "Civic Duty"-style language, telling "us" how "we" need to make sacrifices, just like how people did during World War II.

It's our "Civic Duty" to support "Black Lives Matter"; to oppose Justice Kavanaugh; to wear face diapers; to get the clot shots; to support Ukraine. Every one of these events, and then some, are framed as obligatory moral crusades, which must be supported ASAP. Anyone who chooses not to participate is shamed, ridiculed, "doxxed", and has their livelihoods destroyed.

An example I just read yesterday involved one of their nutjobs explaining how the country should have one party, with one candidate, which everyone can unify around.

The authors of "The Fourth Turning" predicted this push in the last section of their book. They explain that during every crisis era, civic life is renewed, governments are granted tons of power, and the society-- willingly or otherwise-- coalesces around a new set of values, enforced by the state. They explain that the political movements which move in step with this trend are the ones likely to take control. The outcome can either be favorable, or a Fascist-style dictatorship.

They also explain that benefits should be shifted from the elderly, to the young, during a crisis period (and then in the opposite direction during a high). Meanwhile the crisis, they describe, is when the infrastructure of the next cycle should be laid.

Whether instinctively or by design, the Democrats seem to understand where we are in this cycle. Their choice of values is totally nonsensical, which is why they aren't catching on. But at least they are presenting a holistic world view, attempting to fulfill the need the young have for making some kind of sacrifice, or being "heroes" in some way. They are also non-stop talking about forgiving student loan debt, and about building infrastructure (again, around a nonsensical "climate change" value however).

If the overall cycle theory is correct, it poses a problem for Conservatives: according to the authors, now is not the time for individualistic-centered Libertarianism. Rather, Conservatives should be proposing a competing civic model, with its own set of values for which young people can throw themselves on the sacrificial altar.

The authors-- in 1997, anticipating the condition we're now in-- proposed that such a model could be centered around being honest with people about the State being utterly unable to fulfill its obligations, and so frame the shared sacrifice as everyone rebuilding the country's infrastructure and entitlements, but in a balanced budget sort of way.

Most of the country's Conservative leaders-- Ron DeSantis, Rand Paul, and Tom Massie, to name just a few-- seem more oriented around reacting to and putting the kibosh on the Democrat's dystopian, global-technocracy police state ambitions. This is a good thing. But they shouldn't be as purely reactionary: they perhaps need to paint a holistic, competing civic model.
Buy Lazio! - 07:45 CDT, 4/26/22 (Sniper)
Funniest thing I've read in awhile: in the wake of Elon Musk buying The Twatter, Lazio fans have started a new running joke by en masse sending him messages like this:

  • "Dear Elon Musk, here is a new challenge for you: after Twitter, buy Lazio."
  • "Dear Elon, why don't you buy Lazio too? It's the first team in Rome. Think about it!"
  • "Hey Elon, would you buy Lazio too? It has the same colors as Twitter, come on."

Makes my morning!

I haven't been writing much on here because I haven't had much to say! Just watching the American crisis implosion continue. I've been giving some thought to which of the "new values regime" we should tolerate, and which things should definitively be chucked into the ocean. Increasingly I think I'm going to be a sort of intermediary between the Boomers and the Millennials. I'm warming up to the task. That said, I think lots of those values will automatically disappear out of necessity once the impending disaster occurs. There won't be time for nonsense anymore.

My kids were baptized in a beautiful way during Mass this past Sunday. I will take them to Confession this Saturday, and they will have First Communion on Sunday.

Other than that, I've been continuing to work my way through "Horizon Forbidden West". Wonderful game, it's been getting better and better as I've progressed. I also have a couple of Switch reviews I need to write: "Pathway", plus the Neo Geo Pocket Color collection. I should do pictures of the latter, the Limited Run collector's edition is pretty special.